Yah well I tried, but once again I failed to lose any weight since making my last goal set date. I ate well and clean about 50% of the time, the other times I devoured donuts and icing. Yah, I got issues. Who doesn’t, right? 

Anyways, I’m sitting here at the beach with my friend and her 3 kids and trying to have fun, regardless of my dumpy butt in a bikini. Hahaha, like I would wear a bikini. 😱

My friend’s husband was killed on a motorcycle last June. A truck pulled out in front of him and he couldn’t stop. He, unfortunately, died on impact on his way to eat lunch with his 7 year old son at school. My friend not only lost her husband, but also the daddy to 3 beautiful children, ages 2, 7, & 8. It has been devastating for her and her kids. Well, a few weeks ago, she told me that she was going to Florida and taking the kids, driving there from Ohio, by herself. I thought man, that’s going to be hard to do by herself. But she was determined, she said she needed to get away. Her and her husband used to come to Florida every year and she needed to go. So me, feeling like she shouldn’t try to go alone, volunteered to go with her. Luckily, she thought that was a great idea.  So, here we are, Daytona Beach, FL.

Now, remember I haven’t been around little kids for a very long time. I mean my kids are 25 & 21. So to be travelling with a 2 year old, you’ve got to be a very patient person. All I can say is, Wow! 😨 You can’t take your eyes off these kids for a second. I’m not sure I knew what I was really getting myself into. All, I can say though is that my friend really loves her kids so much and it is worthwhile to see her happy to be spending time with them like this. I think they keep her from being so sad. However, you can tell she is sad. She talks a lot about all of the things she did here with her husband and the kids in previous years. I don’t know if this is all a good thing for her emotional well-being, but I’m hoping so. It’s just hard to know what to say when she starts expressing her sadness and grief. I’m not very good at finding the right words to say. Regardless, we have 6 more days down here. I’m hoping for good things to come for her and her kids. I just want to be as helpful as possible without being a burden. Sometimes I feel a little uncomfortable. We haven’t really been friends for very long and we aren’t like really close. So, I’m still trying to read her, she’s kind of umm what do you say?, Closed for closeness? It will be interesting to see how or if things change, for better or worse, by the end of this vacation….for her and our friendship. I’m glad I was able to come though, because I feel like I  have been able to help a lot with the kids. Do, I think she could’ve done it alone? Probably, but it would have been much tougher. I think it sucks that she lost her husband, and I sometimes cry for her and her kids. She doesn’t know this. I pray for them too. But I can’t change the fact, no one can. Hopefully just being here is something. At least I get to enjoy the time away and the beach, but it’s just not really about me, I’m going to have fun anyways!!