Taking a break from it all, but not sure why

I’m trying not to feel guilty and ashamed. I am not sure what’s going on with me. Its happened before, but I recovered. I hope that I will again soon. I was doing so well for so long, then ever since Monday, I’ve been going down. Like an I don’t care anymore feeling. I don’t know if it’s due to the weather change, a hormone imbalance, or what. But my diet has sucked and my workouts have been barely there.

I know most people love the fall season, but I have very negative feelings about it. I think of it as the ending of life, everything turns brown and gray, the humming birds and butterflies disappear, its cold. I have to exchange my flip-flops for socks and slippers. I have to put on too many clothes to be comfortable. The air is dry, and so is my skin. I hate cold, but unfortunately I’m stuck living in Ohio, so I have to live with it, at least until I win the lottery.

I don’t know why all the negativity. I surely don’t mean to bring anyone down. I’m not usually like this. I’m at a loss for why I’m feeling this way. I’ve somehow been drug onto the train on a downward spiral.
Someone pull me off.

4 comments

  1. Everyone is allowed to have a down period. That is ok. Change it up. Download a light hearted comedian – Jim Gaffigan or John Pinette work for me – and go for a walk. Look at the trees not as dead but for their new colors.

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  2. I feel your pain too. The changes, some mood swings, a difference in even already bad sleep patterns. The weather change surely doesn’t help. I am lost in between days as my schedule is a blur and needing stability would only help. The negativity is sort of a metaphor for any load of stuff that is pulling us down and we all have triggers and events that do. I hope yours is not as bad as mine and you keep yourself letting go here as I like seeing you write as do others 🙂

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  3. I’m new to your blog and so haven’t yet read enough to know what you have been doing but there’s a possibility it is a combination of things. Overtraining syndrome will soon give you a huge kick in the ass and bring you back to earth with a bang, Listen to your body and do what feels right, Do not feel bad about it at all. Take a break and do something different. Go for a walk, take photographs, sing out loud. Just be kind to yourself and your mind. Things will work out in the end.

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