I’m trying not to feel guilty and ashamed. I am not sure what’s going on with me. Its happened before, but I recovered. I hope that I will again soon. I was doing so well for so long, then ever since Monday, I’ve been going down. Like an I don’t care anymore feeling. I don’t know if it’s due to the weather change, a hormone imbalance, or what. But my diet has sucked and my workouts have been barely there.
I know most people love the fall season, but I have very negative feelings about it. I think of it as the ending of life, everything turns brown and gray, the humming birds and butterflies disappear, its cold. I have to exchange my flip-flops for socks and slippers. I have to put on too many clothes to be comfortable. The air is dry, and so is my skin. I hate cold, but unfortunately I’m stuck living in Ohio, so I have to live with it, at least until I win the lottery.
I don’t know why all the negativity. I surely don’t mean to bring anyone down. I’m not usually like this. I’m at a loss for why I’m feeling this way. I’ve somehow been drug onto the train on a downward spiral.
Someone pull me off.