Curses to anyone who brings into work huge bags of my favorite chocolates. I have no self control. I failed big time. I probably ate over 1,000 calories of heath bars, York patties, and peanut butter cups. Even though I was feeling sick and guilty, I just would grab another handful and shove them down my gullet. Even as I read all the weight loss blogs and how not to eat sugar, I’d grab some more chocolate. I don’t know why, I have no good reason except that they tasted so good and I kept wanting more and more and more. It was like drugs but they really weren’t making me feel good. I couldn’t stop.
I still stuck to eating my healthy food, thinking maybe I would stop eating chocolate if I filled up on chicken and broccoli and almonds….but no, I still wanted to eat that candy even after I ate real food. I drank two cups of green tea and tons of water. I ate my tuna and green peppers. Then another piece of candy. I don’t know if I just figured I was a failure already so what’s one more, I just couldn’t stop myself from eating the poison chocolate. I don’t understand why I do this to myself. does anyone else have this problem. Just when I get ahead I fuck it up it.
Anyways, I came home and worked out. I did 30 minutes on the bike. Chest and triceps.
I was able to do a few more reps on my chest presses, still only at 60 pounds-3 sets of 8, 6, 5, and 4 reps on decline. I did 12 pounds on my flys, skull crushers, and tricep extensions. 3 sets of 12 on tris, 3 sets of 10 on flys and 3 sets of 7 on crushers. I could only do 19 pushups and 20 dips. I did 60 quad leg raises with 30 pounds, and 20 squats.
I felt like yuck the whole time; heart burn and gas, probably from all the stupid chocolate. So I drank my protein, I’m gonna drink a ton more water, take 2 laxatives and hope I can shit out all the toxic waste I ate today. Tomorrow, I’m getting up and doing 5 miles if it kills me.